Thursday, March 9

God is in Control!

Any of you out there struggling with discouragement lately? Maybe I have because it's easier to feel whatever emotion is it when you're pregnant, I don't know.
We've had a lot going on lately, and I've been fighting the financial 'depression bug'.
~We found out that not only does Vern NOT get any money back from our taxes this year, but he has to pay out instead. I knew from my past years that I would still have to pay for my 4 months of self-employment last year, and was prepared for that. We were NOT prepared for Vern to have to join me in that though. I think it can go without saying that when I found out we were paying out only this year, with no help back, I took it rather hard.
~While preparing our taxes this year, we found an unpaid bill that Vern wasn't aware still existed, and it's rather substantial. Though we have until the end of the year to pay it, we want to get it paid off as soon as possible.
~Our washing machine decided it would act up again on Tuesday, and got worse than before, smelling hot and not finishing its cycle as it was supposed to, yet the dial was around to off. Long story short, we now have to find another washer, and dump this old one, which is ancient and has surprised me by holding up this long.
~Naturally, reality has it that your other bills don't stop coming in just because you've had unexpected setbacks with new bills that just created themselves.
~Our baby is due in 8 1/2 weeks, and new expenses are fixing to occur with all that.
~Vern has to figure out what's happening financially for school next year, if he is to go back.

So I've been trying to remember how blessed we are through all this turmoil going on in my mind and heart, and something the teacher in our ladies' SS class on Sunday shared has really been running through my mind this week. It goes something like this:
The beginning of anxiety is the end of faith. The beginning of faith is the end of anxiety.

Then I think about my cousin who is still fighting cancer, and an aunt who lost her husband to cancer only a year and a half ago, and now has cancer herself, and was told five weeks ago that she wouldn't live more than a month without treatment, but she is still here! Their situations are so much more complicated than ours, so why am I allowing myself to get down about our problems?! Like I said, maybe it's because I know with the baby's time coming closer all the time, life isn't going to get any easier for a while, but hey! Life isn't a bed of roses without the thorns!

So for today--a few things I'm thankful for:
~a healthy pregnancy
~Our needs have always been met somehow so far, so why need I fear how He will keep providing?
~Vern's medical insurance and Medicaid, which are paying for my prenatal appointments and hospital stay, therefore saving us those huge bills.
~Our vehicles are running.
~The flat tire I had the other week started close to home and finished going flat in the carport. Vern's class the next morning wasn't until 10, giving him time to change the tire for me in the daylight, before heading off to class. God provided once again and kept me safe.
~Vern's work schedule is fixing to change in a week and a half, giving him more time to study during the weekday evenings, though it will take him away on Saturdays.

I could name so many more blessings, but I'll only share those for now.

What tidbits, phrases or other type of encouragement have you heard or read lately that has helped you put things back into proper perspective?

~Lez

5 Comments:

At 3/09/2006 2:14 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

hey Lez, I'm right with you! Preg. and looking at the bills PILING up everywhere! I just told Gabriel last night that it's probably good we're not rich--we have to pray so much more. Why is it harder to trust God when it comes to financial things??? Of course all the preg. emotions, add to it. :) love you, Janelle

 
At 3/10/2006 12:37 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Lez, this is a song, "Walk by Faith" that Jeremy Camp wrote and sings on a CD I recently purchased. In addition, this song was written during his short marriage, 3 months to his wife Melissa who died of cancer, who God called home. His testimonial on how this affected his Faith and struggles with, is on a DVD that comes with this CD. IT is called Jeremy Camp Unplugged. IF you would considering listening to it, I will purchase another and send it to you both as a gift from us.


Walk By Faith

Would I believe you when you say
Your hand will guide my every way
Will I receive the words You say
Every moment of every day

Well I will walk by faith
Even when I cannot see
Well because this broken road
Prepares Your will for me

Help me to win my endless fears
You've been so faithful for all my years
With the one breath You make me new
Your grace covers all I do

yeah, yeah , yeah, yeah, ya

Well I'm broken- but I still see Your face
Well You've spoken- pouring Your words of grace

Well hallelujah, hallelu
Well hallelujah, hallelu

I will walk, I will walk, I will walk by faith
I will, I will, I will walk by faith

Friend of the Family

 
At 3/10/2006 11:09 AM, Blogger Momof3 said...

Thanks, Anon, that is a great testimony of a song!

I meant to add this other blessing yesterday that I had thought of--
The Lord knows how much I need exercise for my health, and has provided 70s weather for me to walk in lately. It's been a great motivator! I'm so thankful for how He's looked out for me in that way!

For those of you having cold weather and snow, enjoy it for us--we'll keep our nice sunny days! =]
~Lez

 
At 3/12/2006 7:45 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Hi Lez, Yes you stumbled upon Elaine used to be Berry's blog. I'm not sure where the Ohio part comes in. I've lived in Missouri, Oregon, and Indiana after leaving Virginia, but never Ohio. That's where John's from! I managed to snag my doc at just the right time--we met each other the day before he took his boards. By the time we got married, he'd already been in practice for over a year. I'm realizing just how blessed I am when I talk to you and another friend of mine who are married to aspiring docs. I guess the only thing I can tell you is to look ahead about ten years or so. I'm sure you'll look back then and think it was all worth it! By the way, if Vern ever needs a great group of people to work with we're looking for docs from time to time here. Indiana has one of the lowest malpractice rates in the nation. The best thing about the group of docs John works with is that they are all Christian people (mostly liberal Mennonites) and the call is spread around. Another great thing about this place if you're a family doc is that you can still do deliveries and minor surgeries (stuff that's reserved for specialists in a lot of places). Just one of the things John enjoys about being in the poorest county in the state of Indiana! I hope that things are looking up for you all pretty soon. I'll pray that you'll find a great deal on a washer! In fact, I'll pray that God will bless you in some unexpected ways.

 
At 3/15/2006 11:09 PM, Blogger Truthseeker said...

I can relate with everything you have written about on this post. As they say, been there, done that. {:^) I can testify that God knows and He cares, so just do the next thing you can, and the next. God will supply the needs you find out of reach.

I noticed the time that you wrote this post and realized that Daniel had been in the presence of Christ for about an hour or so our time. Situations like that make my "cares" seem trivial, and makes me re-focus on the important relationships in my life.

So, I love you and Vern, take care of tot, and we will see you when we can. You are in our prayers daily.

Thanks for the great birthday card, it was tops. ~Dad~

 

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